I am reluctant to eat.
Isn’t it silly? I feel so foolish and naive admitting this aloud but I catch myself avoiding food. I briefly talk about it in another post and I am beginning to realize it’s more than just forgetting to eat or pushing it off. I don’t want to eat because I “feel fat” afterwards.
There are two main reasons that have influenced this bad habit.
1. Lack of Patience
Simply put, I am not seeing the results as quickly as I want. I put myself down instead of build myself up. It’s only been a little over a month since my health journey began, why do I feel impatient with myself so easily? I have been making progress. So I should focus more on those than on what hasn’t been accomplished yet.
2. Lack of Confidence
My lack of confidence is absolutely detrimental to my health journey. I keep telling myself that I need to be skinnier. And since I am not at all close to where I’d like to be in regards to my physical appearance, my self esteem becomes affected. I need to learn how to be confident with my present Self and practice loving the body I have. If I don’t practice this, when I finally attain my goals, I’ll just find another attribute to complain about or be ungrateful for. I’ll end up not congratulating myself for the progress I’ve made and instead, put myself down for the progress I have yet to accomplish.
As silly as my thoughts can be sometimes, I think it’s important to discuss the challenges we face when on our paths. There is nothing perfect about a health journey. And I don’t want to create a blog that glamorizes it. It’s a journey and journeys are filled with all sorts of failures and all sorts of successes. The focus should be on how we overcome these obstacles through the development of self-love.